… says Julianne Moore. And I agree with her. There’s a hot-headed, irritable, music-loving, free spirited woman in there and she surfaces once in a while.
I also love what she says about New York, that it’s a city with history. Well, Delhi is a little older than New York (!) and similarly, I love that my kids get to grow up in this city with a lot more history than most places. (BTW Dilliwalas, have you seen this? You could take a Delhi Eco Tour! How about that?!)
There’s also a part where she says that she hates how reductive it is when people ask her how something affects her as a mother. Well, that is the bit that I don’t agree with yet, because it is, as of now, the biggest thing I’ve ever done. Even if I wrote a book, I somehow don’t think it would be as life changing as pushing two people out of .. .err.. well, you know, that cut in my belly.
I do think of most issues now, as a mother and I can’t help it. That’s me as a mother. A little different to what Julianne Moore is, as a mother. Maybe it’s because I’m an ordinary person and not a film star. Maybe if I were world famous, my sense of self would be bigger than what it is right now, you know, being just a nobody journo. Maybe my maid has a bigger sense of self than I do, despite being the domestic help. I don’t know really. So it might not be the job thing, right? All I know, is that right now, my being a mother, plays on all my decisions, my choice in many matters and shapes the person I am.
I’m the kind of person who throws herself into the choices she makes. To me, being in this moment, living it and feeling it fill every fibre of me, is very important. I feel it when I bury my nose in freshly shampooed baby hair and when I hold a little hand and shield him as I cross a busy road.
She goes on to talk about how it might be so in the early years of motherhood and the rush of hormones but that it changes over the years. And here I feel she might be right. Simply because I am not there yet, so I really can’t tell, can I?
What about you, mothers of older children. How much older? I dunno. Teenagers? Working moms as well as SAHMs. Tell me, do you still feel motherhood was the biggest thing that happened to you? Do your children still fill your nights and days and thoughts?
Will I get over this and be normal someday? Or do you think it’s a personality type thing. That some of us never get over it?